Whoops haha, guess I missed last year my badd. I'll save all the talk of whenever I turned 16, im 17 years old now! That's the important part! I feel so. Soo much better than I did when turned 16, and especially 15 god lol. I'm still depressed, and im still struggling, but I feel like im very very well on my way to recovery. It's been a very worrying sad stressful past while but im grateful to have made it this far. Im so happy to have my friends and acquaintances and loved ones they're absolutely the only reason I've made it as far as I have. I feel eternally indebted to them for all they've done for me lol. Now that im 17 I do feel a certain pressure to lock in and really push myself this last year before adulthood, to really get things done and accomplish them, especially things I've been wanting to for so long. Maybe I can finally get started on that webcomic lol, I bet 13 year old me would loove to hear I've started on that. I really feel like im at a point now where I can change my life for the better, where I can turn things around because as rough as the last 2 or so years have been, I feel like im strong enough to make it if I really believe I can. Now's my chance more than ever to make what I wish to make, to do what I want to do, all those pipe dreams can be more than that and can come true if I really really do good enough. I hope now more than ever things finally improve, and that I can finally be excited to look on to a less miserable future, one that I can actually see myself happy living in. I hope it comes to me soon, and if it doesn't I'll just have to get there with all the effort I can muster putting out. I want nothing more now than to do this, to be able to live the life I want. There's still some shit I have that weighs me down, more than certainly lol, but I just gotta power the fuck thru and hope all ends well, do everything I can to make sure I can do things how I want to, live the way I want to live. For now though I think I'll draw because fuck im spent lmao i haven't even done much today and im tired =<= still though!!! Everything I said stands true. I will get better, I will improve, I will be happy. And im GOING to make that FUCKING WEBCOMIC!!! MARK MY WORDS!! but for now my ramblings end this year, see you next birthday! I'll be an adult wowowow lol jeez im nottt prepared for that in the slightest. I'll be out of highschool this year too fuck man. Time moves fast huh lol, whatever doesn't matter im gonna keep struggling and striving for that better tomorrow and I'll still be here doing whatever all the way, mostly art probs. Later!
Thank you <3
